Let’s start with the first question – Is this blog dead?
Well, I’m honestly not sure. I’m not ready for it to be dead, but it has been well over a month since I last posted. Maybe I’m just delaying the inevitable?
When I started PlayfullyTacky, I needed a place to vent and decompress. I was working a job that stressed me out and left me feeling a little dejected when I came home every evening. On top of that, my home life isn’t exactly of the most stress-free type (hello, little man!). Writing here helped me control that stress – to a point, I’m sure my husband is rolling his eyes right about now – and gave me a creative outlet.
My current job doesn’t stress me out, it wears me out.* When I come home I want to sit on the couch with my kids and watch television. [Yes, still Bob’s Burgers on repeat.] When I’m not at home sitting on the couch, I want to explore this amazing area. When I have that magical combination of spare time and motivation, I spend it working on a personal research project.
So. . . I’m not sure. I won’t be going back to my three posts a week schedule, but don’t count me out yet.
Update #1: I’m picking up a seasonal retail job for the holidays. We are still paying the Arkansas mortgage (you don’t even want to hear the drama involved with that) and once you add in rent ($$$$) and other bills, there just isn’t anything left. Not a dime. We are cutting it very close every month. And sometimes worse – we have come up short a few times and resorted to taking from our already-nearly-empty savings. Yeah . . . that won’t work for much longer. I’m uncomfortable with our current financial situation, so I’m doing something about it.
I’m not thrilled – I absolutely live for this time of year. I am one of those ridiculous holiday people that you love to hate and being tied down at the mall will keep me from optimal celebration levels. But it is easier for me to pick up something extra since the husband is still working from home and hunting for a local position. He doesn’t need to be locked in to a weird schedule. I’m feeling fairly positive about it now, but check back with me the week before Christmas when I’m ready to gouge-out eyeballs.
Update #2: It seems I have volunteered for our school district’s PTA special needs committee. If you don’t understand how someone can just suddenly find themselves volunteering . . . well, you clearly don’t have a problem with over-commitment and do have the ability to say no when you are passionate about something. I’m a chronic volunteer-aholic. In a moment of clarity, I managed to turn down serving as chair, instead signing up for treasurer. I’m excited about this, but it is quite a commitment. I’m happy to be involved though. The goal is for this committee to eventually break off as a standalone PTA. I think that is extremely promising and really fills a need.
Of course I was going to volunteer. . .
Update #3: The new job is going well, I think. I feel like I’m settling in and hitting my stride. At least, I feel a lot more comfortable now than I did when I arrived in June. That is a positive sign. I won’t talk about the details – because you know I don’t do that here – but I’m pretty sure I made the right decision. Moving into a nearly-100%-administration job has been an adjustment (and I say nearly-100% just b/c I have the opportunity to still do a little bit of collections work in the future). I’m glad I took the leap though.
Update #4: Ya’ll, I can’t say I’ve adjusted to apartment living any better than I had last time we spoke. There are just people . . all over . . living their lives . . in my space. It doesn’t even fulfill the enjoyment I get out of eavesdropping, as most of the people who talk loudly enough to be heard through the windows are speaking in languages I can’t even identify. I really want to get over being cranky about this, but I’m having trouble moving on. I know that makes me a spoiled, first world problem kind of person. But geez. I’m too introverted to be around all of these folks all of the time. There are eight buildings in my complex with 24-32 apartments each.
And a lot of residents look at you like you have horns growing out of your head if you speak to them. Ha! That is a stereotype, of course, but – you guys, I’m not making this up – I confused one older lady so badly by talking to her in the elevator that she offered me a magazine before running off. She literally didn’t know how to handle me.
Okay, I’m being silly now. There are some things I like about our home, but all of the people around isn’t one of them.
Update #5: The Christmas tree is up and lighted [lit?], but not decorated. The husband made a deal with the daughter that she could put the tree up early if she dug it out of the storage closet. Of course, I’m sure you all know that he still ended up doing a lot of that work. My husband is extremely pro-Thanksgiving, so this is a big concession for him. And it appears to have worked – he told me a couple of days ago that he was listening to Christmas music while working. Oh how quickly he abandons his beloved Thanksgiving.
I’m not in any hurry to get ornaments on the tree any time soon. I’m picturing a slow build-up to full-on-Christmas-joy over the next few weeks. But the lights and tree and gorgeous. It looks too short though when compared to our high ceilings. I might need to upgrade when Balsam Hill has their January sale. There goes all that extra money from the second job. . .
Speaking of Balsam Hill, their first catalog arrived over the weekend. That signals the beginning of the holiday season for me. I don’t usually buy anything (our tree was absolutely worth the money, but that is about as much as I can invest), but just turning the thick, glossy pages makes me smile.
*I would just like to point out that this is a super-big-deal for me and the reason we made this 2000-mile move. Husband says my entire demeanor is happier and I do feel better. Success!!