J = Juggling

If I could pick five words to describe myself, I would probably go with something like, “I do too many things.” It is very true. I am a chronic volunteer who loves to add new lines to her resume. A few days ago, I had to make a list of the work-related extra activities I do and I was a little surprised. I guess seeing it all in a list in front of me really hit home. I’m on a break from Junior League and thought that really freed up my calendar, but I’m been in denial.

Let me share my list of ongoing commitments:

J-Junior League (currently on leave)
-Ex officio board member of local cultural institution
-Board member of local historical association
-Career related committee #1
-Career related committee #2
-Career related committee #3
-Career related task force (ending, thank goodness)
-Career related position #1
-Career related position #2

I think I might be forgetting something.

After all that and my regular job, I think I can come home and give 100% to my family. Well, I can’t. Not all the time. I’m bad with juggling and I really need to work on my priorities. I don’t really know why I insist on doing so much. I guess I’m just always trying to prove myself. See, I’ve always been on overachiever and based a lot of my worth on how smart people thought I was. Now that I’m in the real world and things don’t work that way any more, I try to be everything to everyone to replace that feeling. Man, that sounds sad. Its good to know where those feelings come from though. Next time I get asked to do something, I can try to take a step back and decide if I really want to do it or if I’m just trying to be the person I am in my mind.

Maybe I should turn 2014 into my year of calm. Even with all of these commitments, it wouldn’t be so stressful if I didn’t get so worked up over everything. I’ve always wanted to find a way to be the kind of person who can come home and forget the day. Maybe 2014 can be the year I figure that out. Yeah, I’m sure how though. I’ll work on it.

My name is Stephanie and I do too many things.



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